ok well it is now christmas break and it is less than 24 hours untill my birthday... that is the date i turn 21... oh dear god hide the alcohol... lol jk i know how to handle the alcohol... i know how to handle it quite well... but yes i am having celebrations on the 27th at 5:30pm at the Hamburg Applebees in Lexington... i can't wait... yay its kinda surreal... but yeah i just wish school would be here... weird to wish but yeah i know... well here is a quick update...

i am no longer going to australia...but i am not going to go into the reasoning for that right now... but reguardless it was a decision that needed to be made and i am happy with it currently... i can't wait untill next semester... and yeah me and the roomie are going to live it up... its grand stuff... really GRAND... and for once i'm not being sarcastic...

i'm still in a state of perpetual confusion...and that boy i was talking about is not helping matters... i guess we will see where things are when we get back to school... b/c i dunno... we could hurt each other very easily... and it kinda sucks that we are both such little kids about everything... but reguardless... yeah confusion is still present...

confusion i guess is kinda over with the other boy... i have accepted the fact that he will never do what is right for him... stupid ass bitch girlfriend will continue to pollute his life and there's not a damn thing i can do about it... but he still knows how to hurt me and does so without intention... the worst part is... i always break down in front of him... damn me... i need to stop being such a damn girl... guh...

thats all for now i guess...its weird when home takes on a new meaning for you... i mean i love being in berea with my mom and always will consider it home... but at the same time i feel as though my new home is at transy... lol i kinda feel like dorthy right now...where are my damn red slippers... **there's no place like home... there's no place like home**

i may not have toto to talk to about my worries... but i have tito the frog...lol the names close enough it works...

i am ready to go back...